Omg I needs to buys lots and lots of CDs! There are so many new CDs coming out right now! KOKIA, Utada Hikaru, Alan, Kelly Clarkson, India.Arie...ARGH I'm going to be broke again.Its funny sometimes how some songs can so accurately describe how you are feeling at that exact moment, its almost creepy. I just sat down alone in the room and this song just came up in my handphone.Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
I hope it never happens, but when it does and when I tell you the truth, I pray and hope this song doesn't play in my head. I feel like I cheated so many months out of you. I could never forgive myself for that, but neither can I regret that it has happen, only to move on. Maybe you won't think its a big deal, but I know in my heart I know I shouldn't have started anything with you.
All I can say, it was the most perfect mistake I ever made.
I can't believe I'm losing sleep again, after so many months...
