Of this tangled mess of strands that I have made up of my life, let Me pick the path that pleases You.

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Whoo...after a night of sleeping, I am finally awake to blog about SCC Chalet '08. It's not like I wanted to blog about it the next day, its because of my stupid router going bonkers on me. 2WIRE, you are made of one big pile of FAIL.

5/10

Chalet started earlier than most people coz Gary suggested I go to his house before I go for chalet, which is a totally awesome idea. But before that, I went out with Deyan, Yuan Hoe and the super awkward Patrick and his girlfriend out to accompany Deyan buy his army stuff. Like seriously, who brings their girlfriend out with his guy friends? Never mind, Patrick is kinda new at this, if not I will bite off his again. lol. Deyan treated us to coffee bean, YAY thanks Deyan! The thing about my Secondart School friends are that they aren't too bothered on how much you've changed, rather, everything just winds back to the secondary school days, where we were always seeing each other. Even after so long of not seeing each other, it wasn't so hard to click again. I loved it when things about the heart weren't so complicated like now.

After parting my ways with Deyan and co., my father drove me to Gary's house with his SUPER AWESOME UBER GPS system of DEATH. I swear my father buys too much things for his car. Like if anyone touches his car, his nostrils will flare and start to hyperventile. "Who touched my care? *death stare*"

The stay at Gary's house wasn't so eventful, just us (with Ken and Dixon) playing PSP and wasting time away. I'm still pissed at myself for buying a fake-o memory card. Games can buy fake, but hardware, you better jolly well buy the original. Oh yeah, I got scared by Gary's Grandma, lol.

6/10

Actually I forgot on the most part about what happened that day lol. We just settled in the chalet and waited for stuff to happen, which it didn't so we were half bored to death. Ben cooked for us the awesomeness of his version of Hainanese Chicken Rice. Being a Hainanese myself and having eaten this sort of chicken rice almost my whole life, I can say its pretty near the actual one. The rice wasn't too fragant as the actual one though, but the chicken was spot on. After dinner I picked up Avier. She's cheerful as always and slimmed down! Note to everyone: When I miss someone, I don't show it out but I do miss you people. Maybe coz my father used to travel a lot, I didn't see a lot of him when I was growing up. Maybe somehow I became used to it? I don't know honestly.

We were so bored, so we decided to go out to the beach to have a little walk. We sat at the rocks on the beach and started to talk about stuff. I even got lectured a bit. Though I have an absolute mind about it, maybe I'm joking maybe I'm not? Now I'm not even sure about myself. Seems like my goal of getting someone before I go into army is horribly crushed in front of my face. Someday I want to reject someone, I want to break someone's heart, just once maybe. Oh yeah, congrats to my two good friends (you know who you are), be happy!

I got a little tipsy over my Choya and wrestled with Avier. LOL I know she's a bit angry, but LOL I can't believe I did that. And what's with the November 10? My birthday's November 9 and Ben and Dixon heard me saying November 10 in my sleep. The only November 10 I remembered was the birthday of some girl I used to like. Like whatever. Maybe its my death date? Or the date when I finally find someone? Or...when I get a lot of money LOL.

7/10

I didn't get a lot of sleep, but its was enough...somehow. We woke up and went to the foodcourt after much waiting for people. Somebody suggested to go K Box so we did. I'm surpised at the price for K Box, usually its really expensive but now its kinda affordable, so yeah more money for other things. I realized everytime I go K Box I always sing the same old songs. Time to change my repetoire. Some songs really remind me of myself. Initially I was really heartbroken about something, but the aircon at K Box was INSANELY COLD. Sometimes the lack of warmth really makes people numb about their feelings, which is good in a way? LOL.

After that we went back to the chalet and had the BBQ. It was okay as other BBQs are, other than the weird smell the stingray gave. Someone went missing, notty notty boy. I personally think everyone needs some alone time, so maybe its better to leave them alone at a time like this. After the BBQ, mosty of us stayed back to play with Shirlene her murderer game, due to us having nothing else to do plus the fact everyone was ignoring her throughout the chalet. It was fun...for about half an hour. I am a good murderer LOL coz I don't look as scheming as Steve.

Evon stopped by and everyone thought she changed. I didn't think so lol. Anyways I miss her a whole lot and although we don't talk as much as we used to, she just gives me the feeling of us in secondary school days. I miss those times. Ok I'm repeating myself.

I drank my remaining Choya for the rest of the night and I got horribly tipsy. Not drunk, mind you, just terribly tipsy. Which resulted in me asking everyone to slap me. Do not ask me about my habits, I just like getting slapped. Of course not until I bleed, thats like insane. But then again, asking people to slap you isn't so sane lol. Steve and Chien wen were very cute, they kept feeling guilty after they slapped me, but they did it anyways LOL. After some time, I heard some people talking about me and my drinking habits and don't know why I went into emo mode. So I just left the chalet and walked a fair bit to Downtown East myself. None of the people who I thought would call me called me. But I wasn't a nice person that night, so I don't expect much concern. In the end when I returned I didn't dare to face them and slept outside in the living room. I think I need to put some fats into my hips coz they were so painful, sleeping on the floor lol.

Oh I love you Mr. Brown LOL.

8/10

The next morning I was surprised to find my friends talking to me, the friends who I thought were angry at me. Once I read a horoscope book, they said Dragons are people who think too much. Is it my natural character or is it because after I read it then I have become more conscious about it? We left the chalet pretty early and rotted in the arcade for an hour or so, waiting for Seoul Garden to open. Who knew it was already opened =\. Avier you fail! Ben and Winston are so evil! They keep giving me spring onions of strange shapes and saying its some kind of vegetable, much to their amusement. I seriously thought it looked like a mushroom. Damn you two! Now I have become so paranoid about the stuff they give me lol.

When I went home, my internet wasn't working so I was pissed and went to sleep. I dreamt about the most unexpected people in my house watching me play my Shamisen. Mmm...that means I miss my Shamisen a lot. Haha...

Chalet on the whole was better than last year, due to it not being as heartbreaking as last year and me not being as drunk as last year. I used to drink a lot because of that person and I seriously thought I had completely forgotten and given up on drinking as a way to forget about things for awhile. But somehow my habits come back to haunt me...maybe its how chalet works. You always want to be with the person you love, but in the end, they are not there (physically or emotionally). I realized something in the chalet. Maybe I'm being overly paranoid as usual, but this time I have this strong feeling. Again, maybe I'm thinking about stuff a bit too much than I should be. But the paragraph below is for you (you know who you are)

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I don't know when did it happen, but you have become my number 1. I know a lot of my friends, after reading this, will feel jealous and sad that I don't put them first, but then again, they don't know how much you mean to me. Sometimes I am so close with my other friends is because I haven't been spending them with them in a really really long time, so I want to spend time with them as much as possible. But you have to remember one thing and that is I put you first. I'm not sure what you think of me, definitely not as much but it doesn't matter coz I can't force people to feel the same way I feel about them. That's why maybe when you are with your number 1s, I take a step back. All I ask is that we will be friends forever.

To the others who read this and feel disappointed in me, don't worry. Even though you are not number 1, you are a close number 2! =)

I don't ask for much.

Just Because
4:16 PM