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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

I experienced another failure today. The heart aches, definitely. Ahh...the wonders of the ability to accept your failures. Im not cut out for it, coz im still basking in the shock of rejection. Not just physical rejection, but with loads of other stuff. Dare i list it out? Alright

When i saw the happy faces on TV, i wonder sometimes. Did i try hard enough? Am i cut out for that? Should i have asked another chance from the judges? I really dunno, well its too late to regret it now. The best i can do now is support and vote for my favorites. Its so contradicting when my father SMSed me when my turn was near. He said: "Dont worry i know you can make it." When i didnt, he told me in the taxi that i didnt practise enough, it was my fault i didnt make it. Crap...i was holding the tears the whole way. I felt...kinda...betrayed.

Somehow my CCA mates convinced me to join NPidol. After that incident, i really didnt want to go through another rejection phase. But the rush to join with your friends was overwhelming me. "The song didnt suit you." "Sure you have a certain style, sure you worked hard on your choice......BUT" There's always a but, huh. BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT I hate hearing it. Bah...get over it, you pussy.

I never was good in the love department. So why did i cried my heart out in the toilet that day? I guess you can never really get used to rejection. Seeing other people not even interested in that department, maybe i should too. Maybe not maybe, but definitely.

Ahh...how the heart aches. It seems that recently i only come here to dish out what's on my mind instead of reporting funny stuff. Nadz if you read this, sorry for no funny stuff.

BAH this entry sucks.

Just Because
10:59 PM

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